"argh…guess my head is gonna explode soon.nothing but exam…have been reading and reading since 1month ago,yet why does it seem like never ending?time is crawling like a snail, and my mind’s capacity is decreasing day by day…i’m afraid by the day of exam, i would have succumed to the stress and boredom of endless reading.. being alone in this squarish room, nothing but 4 walls..just wanna get out of this cell and end my nightmare of exam…arghh"
I had been wanting to write something here since weeks ago but there’s always no action. I’d gone through a period of depression and stress due to some family problems. But what made me finally turn it into a reality is the fact that i have actually accomplished my elective posting in Melaka GH!! Time passed fast or more appropriately, it sped during the 4 weeks in GH. on the other hand, it also indicates that my prof exam is approaching. ( Gosh>> )
Erm,refleshing back what i had done throughout this 4 weeks..it’s actually quite a dilemma to make a comment. Y did i say so?? well, i did enjoy myself as i managed to grab a great deal of experiences and exposure. Yet at the same time, i felt bored to have such a routine life everyday. The work of an houseman, which includes clerking patients, doing physical examination, managing the patients and so on..sound so dull and bored. Talking about this, i start to wonder, can i adapt to this lifestyle later in life as i’m complaining of feeling bored now??it’s actually not far apart from now to work as an house officer. I’ve to convince myself that by that time, i should have my mindset changed,that i would assume it to be an exciting exploration on my journey to achieve my dream. I hope that this will really work out..what do u think?
two more days,i’ll be leaving KK back to my lovely home town for my elective posting in Malacca GH. But different from the past, the feeling of sadness has woven in between the excitement of going back home. Sadness of leaving the closest person here is tormenting, landing me into a dilemma. To go back home and leave him alone here is something which is so cruel.
In one month plus, he’ll be graduating, going back to his hometown and having a brandnew working life there. Yet, i’ll still be stucked here for at least another 2 years. How my life will be without him around? I cant imagine, and dare not to think about it for fear of another depression. What i’m sure is..i’m gonna start of a long-distance relationship. Faith is the keyword in maintaining it i suppose… i shall wish myself GooD LucK !!
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wow,cant imagine tht my one-week break is gonna end soon.it had once been my motivation,to keep me working harder n harder for my end-of-posting exam so that i would enjoy the fruit of my hardwork, a time for myself to relax wif a peaceful mind..but, just in a blink of eye, i’m goin back to hospital tomorrow! time flies,doesn’t it?flashing bac for the past whole week, i did nothing in room besides reading n playing spider solitaire.sound boring huh?yet, i really enjoyed this transquil moment, a time for me to be alone n mind free ^.^
not forgetting about my exciting experiences in cooking,together wif my best pal-jia shin..working hand-in-hand,we explored the world of cooking, challengin the toughest recipe on earth!! ( opps..abit over exaggerated) n..eventually we managed to tame the heart of the world’s most picky eater ( a.k.a my bf ^.~ ) ..wow..wat an unforgetable moment!
now, i’m looking forward to chinese new year..not just because it’s a festival of joys n reunion, but also the moment whereby i will be able to fly back home to meet my lovely parents n frens..ppl whom i’v missed so much!! chinese new year songs keep my spirit high, and the thought of buying new clothes often drives me excited ( a very typical reason of y children looking forward to cny 
) haha.. yea! i’m such a simple gal tht thoughts like this can make me elated to the max..
well, thinkin like this, it’s not tht bad to let time fly..atleast the time gap to cny break will pass without me realizing.right??
great!! mum n dad.. i’m coming back soon!! mis ya crazy…
With a knife,
she pierces through the flesh.
Bloodless scene,
she has made,
without a tinge of mercy.
Never had she cared about,
the soul of a lonely creature.
Oh yes!
Just a creature perhaps,
in her conscience.
Helpless, and confused,
are the only emotions that paint the soul of this little creature.
Heartbroken,
with the remaining energy it has left,
crawling slowly,
inch by inch,
trying to escape from the cliff of death.
Yet, no matter how hard it tries,
bouts of attacks keep coming,
aiming directly at its heart.
Just like countless raindrops,
falling all over its unshielded body.
Exhausted,
and hopeless it is.
With the last breath it has,
pulling itself to the edge of the cliff,
and…
There it flies!
Finally,its soul is freed,
from the prison of darkness,
where it has long been captured,
by the heartless ’she’…
NeRvoUs?! PanIc?! tahW I evaH tsuJ enoD iS yletelpmoC tuO fO dniM!! gnilbmerT llitS…lliW erehT eB a egnahC iN yM efiL revE ecniS? ylnO doG swonK! ovarB roF flesyM… eheH..
